Los putos hablan, cuando las gallinas mean.

fags may speak when hens pee. Since hens do not actually pee, well, there you have it. I understand you have thoughts, and maybe even feelings. And someone might actually care. Maybe your mothers, who hatched you, and watched in horror, as it became evident that it was not just a phase, after you grew from little faglets, into full on adult homos. Most likely not your fathers. Personally, I would castrate myself as punishment for having a gay son. And to ensure that I never had another one. But that's just me. Point is : it is far too late in life to try to understand why you are the way you are. It is best to not question or contemplate that which you cannot change. More importantly, accept things for what they are. You are inferior. It is the Natural Order of subs to follow Alphas, and serve them in return for security and/or validation.